After being in my company for so long, i have more or less figured out all the internal politics between different people, different fractions and levels. I still dun understand why people must second-guess other people's intentions. Second-guessing only causes doubts and suspicions and only serve to alleviate your own fears and doubts. It only acts as a tool to harness what you THOUGHT it is and supports your own stand and does nothing more than create negativity in the company. so why does people still indulge in this kind of activities? cos no one is ready to step up to say it out loud and make it clear to everyone that this is happening and everyone just know it is happening deep within themselves. and then everyone starts to gather their own fractions and allies and the tension grows between different fractions and to a point, it becomes a strain working in the company.
As always, i am always standing in the middle of both fractions. Cause i simply do not understand all these stabbing here and there. Lets all be candid and direct and say things out, cant we? i guess we cant really do that. If not there wun be any Holy War, World War and all the shit that is going on around... and somehow, it affects me deep down which made me rather..."down" since few weeks ago. Made me think about why im still here. Should i go or stay? What can I do here? Is this THE JOB for me? and then, suddenly it really hit me hard yesterday after hearing my colleagues talking about all these things and i really wonder why am I so concerned about all these going on around when I do not really stand on any sides...I am still me and all these things shouldn't really affect me at all cos im at ease with anyone in my company, even with THE ONE who they call her "it" in my company whom im still fine with if she does not step on my toes, which she always does.
As always, i am always standing in the middle of both fractions. Cause i simply do not understand all these stabbing here and there. Lets all be candid and direct and say things out, cant we? i guess we cant really do that. If not there wun be any Holy War, World War and all the shit that is going on around... and somehow, it affects me deep down which made me rather..."down" since few weeks ago. Made me think about why im still here. Should i go or stay? What can I do here? Is this THE JOB for me? and then, suddenly it really hit me hard yesterday after hearing my colleagues talking about all these things and i really wonder why am I so concerned about all these going on around when I do not really stand on any sides...I am still me and all these things shouldn't really affect me at all cos im at ease with anyone in my company, even with THE ONE who they call her "it" in my company whom im still fine with if she does not step on my toes, which she always does.
So...
Let me change the things around here.
and after one more year, I shall see where all this leads to...
Let me change the things around here.
and after one more year, I shall see where all this leads to...
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